Lately, I’ve been hearing a voice I haven’t heard in a long time.
It’s my teenage self.
And he’s screaming—for freedom, for lightness, for love, for happiness.
There’s this split inside me. On one side is the serious, responsible version of myself—the one who’s chased financial success, set goals, worked hard, and pushed through. He wants security, progress, and to feel “on track.”
But the other side—the teenager in me—wants something entirely different. He wants to feel joy again. To live slower. To dance, to connect, to play music in the sun. He wants to enjoy the experience of being alive.
And for years, I ignored him.
I lost that hunger. I became stressed all the time. I fell into a life that was too fast for someone like me. I was just surviving, and it nearly consumed me. But something’s changing now. I’m not choosing between the two versions of myself—I’m integrating them. And it feels incredible.
So here’s what I know:
My teenage self needs:
- Social connection
- Music and dancing
- Sunlight
- Love
My responsible self needs:
- Financial stability
- Growth
- Security
- A sense of direction
I’m finally listening to both. I’m designing a life that honors both of their voices. One where I can still build something meaningful—but do it slower, with more joy and heart. One where I don’t burn out trying to prove my worth.
I can create again. Coach. Connect.
I can live with people who value joy.
I can build a peaceful, nurturing relationship.
And I can stay close to my family and friends, even from a distance. I’ll stay rooted in what matters.
It’s a big shift from how I’ve been living. And yes—it’s scary.
But staying stuck? Staying overwhelmed and disconnected from who I really am?
That’s even scarier.
So I’m letting go.
I’m slowing down.
I’m coming home to myself—teenager, adult, and everything in between.
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